its always something

Plans for the next trip are almost in place. I really beleive that it is the one thing that keeps me plugging away here in the States. The desire to leave and come home, one huge metaphysical struggle.
Ultimately, Guatemala has come to represent an Eden like place for me with little to no responsibilities other than to be. With the increasingly sad state of the nation here and down there it feels like no place is truly safe. I refrain from bashing our government on this site but I am no fan of the present administration and I see it as a sinister place to be a part . The same thing is happening to the indigenous in Guatemala, sinister ruling class exploits the masses. Using the word "masses" conjures up by gone memories of communism but that's what is happening.
The new pope is not necessarily a beacon for reconcilliation and social change. So where are those beacons I long to see. Perhaps that is what part of my creation is to be---a beacon, somewhere somehow...